If you’re new to this blog, I’d encourage you to start reading at the very beginning of my story. This blog is about my journey of being married to a practicing pedophile for almost forty years. The purpose of sharing my story is to educate you so that you will not be as naïve as I was about child molestation. There were “red flags” in my marriage, but I had no clue what these meant. After reading my story, you will be in a much better place to recognize the signs of child abuse and to do something about it!
My blog entry for today is going to be brief. Sometimes digging too deep into the archives of my life is too painful. This is one of those days when I’d rather not remember it all. Yet, I feel such a need to say something that is on my heart right now to all of those who are currently in a situation of abuse that feels hopeless. And, I feel an overwhelming need to say something to all of those who have endured the tormenting agony of being sexually abused as a child.
If you’ve been following this blog, you know this is my story of what it was like being married for almost forty years to a man who was a practicing pedophile and falling for the lies and deception that he was a wonderful man of God. The mental and physical control this man, my ex-husband, held over me is painful to think about — and frightening to think about on several different levels.
Two years. It’s been two years now since the father of my children was sentenced to prison for the rest of his earthly life. He was sentenced just a couple of days before Father’s Day. And I’m left without words. What does a mother say to her children under circumstances like this? “Soon you’ll all feel better.” “Life will be back to normal before you know it.” “Just pretend everything’s okay.” Those words don’t fit — not at all!
It’s been a while since I’ve written and I apologize for that. I’ve been super busy and to tell you the truth writing the last post threw me into a mental fog for a good two weeks. I suffered with nightmares, cold sweats, and went through several nights of not being able to sleep. Remembering is not easy — not when you’re remembering painful events in your life.
If you’re new to this blog, please begin reading from the very beginning. It’s so important for you to grasp just how devious and calculating the actions of pedophiles are. As I recall more events in my life while married to a pedophile, I shake and tremble because I didn’t see life clearly. Pain has a way of masking the truth Continue reading →